Thought for the day..

This is from one of my all time favourite movies - Good Will Hunting..
& possibly one of my all time favourite dialogues..
this one is Robbin Williams to Matt Damon. its pretty long - am just going to paste a bit of it..

"So if I asked you about art, you'd probably give me the skinny on every art book ever written. Michelangelo, you know a lot about him. Life's work, political aspirations, him and the pope, sexual orientations, the whole works, right? But I'll bet you can't tell me what it smells like in the Sistine Chapel. You've never actually stood there and looked up at that beautiful ceiling; seen that.

If I ask you about women, you'd probably give me a syllabus about your personal favorites. You may have even been laid a few times. But you can't tell me what it feels like to wake up next to a woman and feel truly happy.
You're a tough kid.

And I'd ask you about war, you'd probably throw Shakespeare at me, right, "once more unto the breach dear friends." But you've never been near one. You've never held your best friend's head in your lap; watch him gasp his last breath looking to you for help.

I'd ask you about love, you'd probably quote me a sonnet. But you've never looked at a woman and been totally vulnerable. Known someone that could level you with her eyes, feeling like God put an angel on earth just for you. Who could rescue you from the depths of hell? And you wouldn't know what it's like to be her angel, to have that love for her, be there forever, through anything, through cancer...."

this is for when you are tempted to give the "i know about this" speech when someone is sharing something very personal.. because you don't know it till you've been there.. even if you have been there.. you don't know it..
hmmm....clearly, more angst!

Nice??!!??

Hi.. been a while since i wrote..
but was feeling quite angsty today..
so i had to get this off my chest..

see, yesterday someone very close to me.. said that she thought i was very nice..
which is great of course.. so i smiled sweetly.. and said "Hmmm.." or something like that.

I am not complaining about being called 'nice'. I would definitely rather be 'nice' than 'not nice'.
It's just that this is not the first time i am hearing 'nice' as a description for me and it just strikes me as being .. inadequate.

I would understand If someone who didn't know me said - "Oh, she is nice"
But when people i know very well, who know me very well, people who probably love me a lot have to describe me .. and all they can say is "Nice", it really bothers me.
Because - what is 'nice'? Its a word you can possibly use for almost everybody.
It pretends to be an adjective but it really says nothing about the person & it makes me feel very .. dead & very without personality.
I am not kidding myself here. I don't think i have THAT MUCH personality but i must have some.

People don't describe you very often. You don't get to hear good things about yourself that often. So when someone finally says something about you they really should try to make it good (Key Learning etc!).