Myself..

I was just telling myself the other day that what i really miss is having people around.. lots of them.
I used to have that.
Incidently "myself" and I talk a lot nowadays and myself has begun answering most questions i ask (this didn't happened that much before). Myself is also bit smug i feel. It is winning many arguments. I don't like to lose to anybody much less myself - if i lose even to myself, where does that leave me, right? (me=I)
I am quite tired of myself.

Haven;'t written anything for the longest time and yet i have NOTHING to write.

Have been feeling fairly stupid lately - almost like i was getting stupider each day... Haven't actively read in a long time and don't seem to retain much of what i do read.
Recently, saw some 2nd hand Class V - Class VII science and geogrpahy books. So i bought them.
Feeling much much better since i read "Ducks have webbed feeet" because THAT at least i knew..
I realise thats pathetic, but well life has been fairly pathetic lately!!
Actually thats not true..life is pretty good.. i can't seem to lose the restless/what is all this nonsense feeling though.
Must get over it!!

i want to be..

Also now i have to answer profound questions people insist on asking me like, "What do you really want to do?" (please refer to previous blog for details).. And all i can think is "Does it look like i know, dude? and would i be here if i knew?"
What are the chances that as a kid i said.. "i really want to do back-end marketing analytics for an offshore insurance business, appa".. Come on.. think a little, people!

I have decided that what i really want is to have a job which has a one-word job description (or at the very max two words).. like doctor, businesslady, army officer, adventure sportsperson, photographer, musician, artist..
and since i don't have the skill / talent / educational qualifications for any of these..it does look like i will be settling for a twenty-four word description type job.. and it also looks like it will not excite me THAT much!

i win

Don't have a job.. yet again.. well not exactly - but close enough..
"client team downsized, budget dropped.. so hmm lets look for a bigger role for you anna.. by July.. "

Been here before .. twice.. (thats also as many times as i have actually held a job by the by)
1st and 2nd job - we lost our biggest accounts..our bread and butter client.. though it never really felt like bread / butter was going to be a problem yet - wanted to actually do some work etc etc.. so left..

ayway, so i told friends about situation at work - and they said "anna strikes again!"..
can see where they are coming from.. must look like i am making a living out of this..
if i am making a living out of this though - let the record show - am a bloody good performer!!
3 jobs - 3 times "disguised unemployed"
Yaay! I think i win!